| Tuesday, August 24, 2010 |
| i miss him dearly |
| aww how i miss him. words can't express how i feel for him. How he hugs me and kisses me. I'm in self denial at this point, if he really loves me truly. I don't know how to feel. i feel so numb at this point.. like my whole body seems sense-less. I need him to be whole,but im beginning to open my eyes.. and see how much advantage i took of him. I miss him incredibly. How can i make him see this and make him want me back extremely.. im questioning my self. i just want to scream on the top of my lungs and let him understand.. that i want to be with him forever... I love you.. |
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| Thursday, August 5, 2010 |
| Struggling to Breath |
I feel like im on top of the world and the next moment i feel like im going jump off the edge of the earth. What has gotten into me? I've fallen deeply for this guy, but he seems lost and confused. I want to help, but he doesnt want help... I'm struggling here. Why can't there be easily solutions to everything?
I have been praying and trying to ease my mind of certain things and be happy. For the most part i believe i have received my "happiness" back. I don't know how... maybe i realize the fact i have been taking him for granted and i want to fix it.
What would i be without him? I most definitely wouldn't be the same. How can i show him he's the light of my life? It's not easy as you think.
Love is easy at first ,but maintaining a relationship through love, trust, and worship is hard. It takes a lot from each other.
I'm stuck at the library til 6:30 and pondering my thoughts isn't so easy. Hardships and pain that he and i went through.
the question is whats left at the end of trying so hard.
The sun hitting the shades. cool breeze running through your hair. What could be better?
I know my thoughts are random thoughts. .. and not in a complete well thought manner nor even in proper paragraph form.
He blames himself for doing certain things wrong.. but if he knows he did.. why not start all over again and try to change wht u could fix.
I graduate on tuesday. I've planned him a party, which a lot of friends.. all i can say. "don't have the feeling of seeing him again". . what is wrong with people these days seriously.
I don't think he opened up his eyes to see things have to change it's life. You have to cope with life and understand..nothing can be easy.
Im running on one more hour. please let the time hurry up haha.
What should i do with him.. to make him feel the spark again? I wanted to go to the pier ,but he refused. Gah my life.
This is the longest hour ever. blah |
| posted by CupcakeBunnie @ 2:07 PM |
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