| Sunday, January 31, 2010 |
| Tried of nonsense- First week of Spring Sem. |
Ever have that feeling that feeling of accomplishment so close, but yet so far away/ I'm feeling overwhelmed at this point with the nursing program right now.And I found out the professor i signed up for a and p was replaced by another professor during the summer. I was just looking forward to having this teacher and I'm disappointed as much as others in my class when they realized that the extra person in the classroom wasn't just a lab technician. I'm getting all my shots for my nursing packet this week =D. I was completely upset by this when i thought this was impossible. This was my ticket into nursing.
But, my ebay business has been picking up and I've been making more cash. So go economy! Another good thing =D
This week has been having ups and downs on me... when something happens amazingly...i find something broke or there is a fork in the road trying to stop me. I'm so sick of it, get me? I have been trying to put my best foot forward and be happy and change myself to be a more happy person, but it's been hard with these ups and downs. What am i suppose to do at this point? Why can't there just be an easy way out?
Life isn't complicated.. human are complicated. So is love complicated then?? Yesterday night was awful. I was waiting for my bf to come home from a car meet and he finally did, it was evening at this point. I was aggravated that he even care i was waiting for him..I just wanted some "i love you", "i missed you", mushy stuff..you know( i was missing him).. But when he got home all i got was blah. LOL. Then, ended with an argument over not caring.This wasn't the first conversation we had about this. I felt like he doesn't have as much passion for me as i have for him.
I like romantic walks, hugs under the stars, u wrapping me in your arms when i get cold or the feeling that just want to be hugged( ok. maybe i am sentimental).. The one thing that also important is conversation in a relationship. Not much to need to say about this right? Guys.. em. I hate doing all the talking. I don't want this relationship to be where she talks and he think she talking jibberish. I'm holding my ground im not calling him nor msging him til he does something about it. He's the one who hung up on me right?
then leaves me hanging for me to call back? u can't be serious.. I didn't even do anything wrong.
WOuld you care if you broke up? Who wouldn't.. all i was trying to say is that
If we did break u there must be a reason,no? I wouldn't die over it. Its a choice. Nothing come planned.
This is his first serious relationship. In my opinion. Unless he counts he previous, but they broke up so many times the pieces couldn't be picked u every time and rebuilt. And this is my second serious relationship. Maybe i should take it easy on him? He experience every little thing i experienced with my first serious relationship. I should understand what he's going through.
My ex made me dumbfounded.. I cared so much in the beginning and even almost towards the end until i gave up. I wasn't taking any more bullshit. That's why i don't regret dumping my ex nor cheating on him(as you might say)long story. He made me feel against myself and he didn't care for me feelings at all. That probably why I think im strong headed now, not to give a crap about anything except for myself. Even though some might not believe he did scar my hand by slicing it with a pair of scissor. It's slowly fading away like my past, but it's been 3 years since the break-up and i still carry this battle wound on my hand.
Maybe i should should call him<3? Doesn't matter whose wrong or right, does it? Just as long as they know that you love them in the end. But he might think there right if you give in LOL. dammit. HAHA. I do love him. Iuno. RAWR.
But, all im good. I'm doing well on my studies. I'm very happy about that. And my weight been decreasing! |
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Quiet and self-reserved as I am, I don’t tend to say much. I’m one of those people with too many thoughts buzzing through my head and somehow manage to keep it all inside. But if you get to know me well enough with time, you’ll find how much more open I can be =). I speak Vietnamese with my parents and if necessary, I throw in a bit of english here and there. I’m someone who doesn’t like to dwell in the past; it’s much easier just living life day by day with what it already has to offer you. I'm an athletic person....so working out is my favorite hobby, the gym is like my 2nd home. I'm sometimes a bit too tolerant and indecisive for my own good, but that's slowly changing with time And to say the least, my lovely friends and family are a major contribution to my life and shaping me to who I am today =D. I’m extremely restless and sometimes find it difficult to stay on task or concentrate on one thing. As for school, well... procrastination. Enough said =P. Who doesn't? Just taking the time to enjoy the very simple things in life can easily bring you relaxation and contentment, in my opinion anyway. Oh, and if you happen to see this girl randomly trip on a nicely evened out pavement/sidewalk with no cracks or holes to its name, that would most likely be me. Anything else? Reality’s the way to go =D
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